Trials of Trust

Preliminary reports show the nodule to be BENIGN!

Once again I found myself in a trial of trust. The amount of trust we have in God is gauged by what we say and how we act. What we say and how we act comes from what is in our heart. Proverbs 4:23 says, "Above all else guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life." A heart with the right attitude only comes as we give it to God on a daily basis to mold and shape. A heart that trusts God has the right attitude and speaks words of trust. I have come to learn that much of life can not be controlled by me. My attitude is the only thing I have control of every minute of every day.

Chuck Swindoll says, "The longer I live the more convinced I become that life is 10 percent what happens to us and 90 percent how we respond to it. I believe the single most important significant decision I can make on a day-to day basis is my choice of attitude. It is more important than my past, my education, my bankroll, my successes or failures, fame or pain, what other people think of me or say about me, my circumstances, or my position. Attitude keeps me going or cripples my progress. It alone fuels my fire or assaults my hope. When my attitudes are right, there's no barrier too high, no valley too deep, no dream too extreme, no challenge too great for me."

This past week I found myself telling people that it just didn't matter if I was going to have to battle cancer again this year. My trust is in God and He is a loving God and knows what is best for me. I didn't say these words flippantly. They were born from silent stillness before God. I poured out my tears and anguish and He poured out his love, courage and hope to face whatever giant He may allow to come into my life.

Don't let the giants control your attitude or cripple your progress. Listen to what you say and you will know the condition of your heart. If your words are angry, bitter, blaming or despondent then you know your heart is not trusting. Let the giants you face deepen your faith and trust in God. Above all else guard your heart for out of it flows the issues of life. I pray what flows out will glorify and honor the maker of that heart.

On the 5th anniversary of her cancer surgery Lynn Eib wrote this poem summing up what her journey with cancer had taught her.

When your world is crashing down around you, trust Him.
When what is unfolding doesn't make sense, trust Him.
When you see no light at the end of the tunnel, trust Him.
When your silent tears spill down, trust Him.
When your heart screams, "Why?" trust Him.
When you have more questions than answers, trust Him.
When the devil tells you otherwise, trust Him.
When it's the last thing you feel like doing, trust Him.
When there's simply nothing else to do, trust Him.