I Will Not Doubt

I will not doubt, thou all my ships at sea
Come drifting home with broken masts and sails;
I will believe the Hand that never fails,
From seeming evil works to good for me.
And though I weep because those sails are tattered,
Still will I cry, while my best hopes lie shattered:
"I trust in Thee."

I will not doubt, though all my prayers return
Unanswered from the still, white realm above;
I will believe it is an all-wise love
That has refused these things for which I yearn;
And though at times I cannot keep from grieving,
Yet the pure passion of my fixed believing
Undimmed will burn.

I will not doubt, though sorrows fall like rain,
And troubles swarm like bees about a hive.
I will believe the heights for which I strive
Are only reached by anguish and pain;
And though I groan and writhe beneath my crosses,
Yet will I will see through my severest losses
The greater gain.

I will not doubt. Well anchored is this faith,
Like some staunch ship, my soul braves every gale;
So strong its courage that it will not fail
To face the might unknown sea of death.
Oh, may I cry, though body leaves the spirit,
"I do not doubt," so listening worlds may hear it,
With my last breath.

Yesterday my mom drew her last breath on earth. It was very unexpected in spite of the struggles she had with her health these past few years. None of us knows when our time on this earth will end. When I draw my last breath what do I want to characterize my life? What do you want to characterize your life?

This poem sums up what I feel. I want to be known as a woman who never doubted God's love for me. I want my faith to be so well anchored that no storm can destroy me. I want to face every storm with courage, knowing God is in the midst of it. He has the power to still the storms of my life if He chooses to. But if He doesn't I will not doubt His love for me. And when I do draw my last breath I want the listening worlds to know of my faith and trust in Him.