Looking Back and Forward

On this last day of the year you may be reflecting on all that 2007 held and looking forward to what 2008 may bring. I could never imagine this past year would hold so many trials in such a short amount of time. And yet God has faithfully loved us and helped us through them.

There's a small verse tucked away in Psalm 105:18 and it is describing Joseph's trials when he was sold into slavery by his brothers. It says,
"His neck was put in irons." A commentary I read said, " The irons of sorrow and loss, the burdens carried as a youth, and the soul's struggle against sin all contribute to developing an iron tenacity and strength of purpose, as well as endurance and fortitude. And these traits make up the indispensable foundation and framework of noble character. Never run from suffering, but bear it silently, patiently, and submissively, with the assurance that it is God's way of instilling iron into your spiritual life. The world is looking for iron leaders, iron armies, iron tendons, and muscles of steel. But God is looking for iron saints, and since there is no way to impart iron into His people's moral nature except by letting them suffer, He allows them to suffer. Are you afflicted with opposition, misunderstandings, and the scorn of others? Do your afflictions seem as thick as the undergrowth confronting someone hiking through a jungle Then take heart! Your time is not wasted, for God is simply putting you through His iron regimen. Your iron crown of suffering precedes your golden crown of glory, and iron is entering your soul to make it strong and brave." F.B. Meyer

None of us knows what God has in store in 2008. But one thing I am sure of, whatever He allows to touch your life will come with meaning and purpose. The iron He has let touch my soul this year has made me stronger and braver. I have become a better wife, mother, friend, daughter, sister and teacher. I have learned how to bring my fears to God and to come away with a peace that passes understanding. I have learned to hear and heed his voice. I have learned I can trust Him to walk me through each day no matter how many thorns are on the path. I have learned to rejoice always and in everything give thanks. What have you learned this year? Look forward with assurance that He will never leave you or forsake you. He will be right by your side through the joys and trials 2008 will hold.

Today I will finish my year with yet one more medical procedure. A colonoscopy wouldn't be my choice but it's my doctor's. In the light of all I've been through it's just one more hurdle to go over as I run to complete healing. I am counting on His presence once again to be with me today. Another fasting, another trip to Scripps, another I.V., going to sleep again, in the recovery room again, one more iron infusion into my soul, more strength and bravery being imparted. As I close my eyes and drift off to twilight sleep I will rest in the assurance that my Father is still with me, still holding and comforting me and still whispering,"Trust Me, I Love You."