He instructs me in the night season

One of the most daunting tasks these past few months has been to decide what course of treatment I should take. As I explored all the options I felt strongly that God was not leading me to do chemotherapy or radiation. Taking a nutritional approach has been a step of faith. The majority of people diagnosed with cancer probably don't take this route because it is not one the doctors are familiar with or educated in. My doctors have been skeptical and one has even told me I will die if I don't do chemo or radiation. These are words that can strike fear in anyone's heart. And yet I have to trust what God is speaking to me more than what man is.

Psalm 16:7 says,
"I will bless the Lord who has given me counsel,
My heart also instructs me in the night seasons.
I have set the Lord always before me;
Because He is at my right hand I shall not be moved.
Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoices,
My flesh also will rest in hope."

I thank God every day that He is directing me to doctors who are helping me nutritionally. He has used people to recommend books and web sites that support what I am doing. Daily I come before God in quietness so he can instruct my heart in this night season. I have not seen my oncologist since before surgery and she does not know I am going to refuse chemo and radiation. She has already told me there isn't anything nutritionally that will help me. Because God is at my right hand, I will not be moved emotionally by my discussion with her. I will rest in hope, trusting God. I have always said I have faith in God but now He has called me to step out in faith and trust my life(literally) to Him.

Have you come to that place where you have let everything go? Is all of your life placed into His hands? Do you wait in silence to hear Him speak to you? Are you certain of the path He is directing you to and are you obediently walking on it?

More than being healed of cancer I want to be obedient to my Father and to honor Him in every decision I make. When I am healed of cancer it will not be because I drank 6 glasses of carrot juice a day, or ate a vegan diet or took 84 supplements a day, or slept better or exercised more. It will be because I was obedient to listen and follow my Father and it brought Him glory to heal me. On that day we will throw a great party! Carrot juice for everyone! :)