Making a Giant Decision

Have you ever had a giant decision to make? The kind where you desperately need to hear from God? Sewell and I need to make one concerning the path we should travel down for my healing. There are so many options which have been recommended by my doctors. They include surgery, removing lymph nodes, chemotherapy and radiation. We have been reading, questioning others, talking to people in the medical field and seeking God. The answer still is not clear. But today the chapter in Facing Your Giant was about hearing from God. After reading it I was so excited because I know we are doing all the right things to hear his voice. Here are some excerpts from the book.

"God hasn't changed. He still promises to guide you.
Psalm 32:8 "The Lord says, "I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you."

Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you saying, "This is the way;walk in it." Isaiah 30:21

"Don't make a decision whether large or small, without sitting before God with open Bible, open heart, open ears, imitating the prayer of Samuel: Your servant is listening." I Samuel 3:10

"Sometimes a choice just "feels" right. When Luke justified the writing of his gospel to Theophilus, he said, "Since I myself have carefully investigated everything from the beginning, it seemed good also to me to write an orderly account for you, most excellent Theophilus." Luke 1:3 Luke pondered his options and selected the path that "seemed good."
The same God who is "working in you to help you want to do... what pleases him." Phil. 2:13
God creates the "want to" within us.

A century ago F.B. Meyer wrote
"Are you in a difficulty about your way? Go to God with your question; get direction from the light of his smile or the cloud of his refusal...get alone, where the lights and shadows of earth cannot interfere, where the disturbance of self-will does not intrude, where human opinions fail to reach..wait there silent and expectant, though all around you insist on immediate decision or action-the will of God will be made clear, and you will have...a new conception of God, and a deeper insight into his nature."

Lucado finishes by saying, "You all have a need to face the giant-size questions of your life. Most of all you have a God who loves you too much to let you wander. Trust Him."

Since being diagnosed with cancer I have felt an urgency pressed in on me by the world to take immediate action. And yet in my heart I have not had the peace to take such action. The more and more I research and talk to women the more I do not feel God is leading me to do chemotherapy. There are so many reasons which have resulted in not having the "want to" in my spirit from God. And yet I have the "want to"within me to fight this giant with nutrition and my own immune system. I have been diligently reading, seeking professional counsel from the medical field and mostly praying for God's guidance and direction. At this point I am going to schedule a lumpectomy but I need clear direction as to whether I should take any lymph nodes or leave them alone. I am asking God to guide me to a Medical Doctor who can shed some light on the benefits of leaving vs. taking if I am going to fight cancer with my immune system. Please pray for us that we will find that answer before surgery. I should have a date for surgery today. I am hoping it will be around October 15th.

If you need to make a decision, heed your heart for God. Consult your family of faith. Read your Bible and then silence your heart before Him. He will be faithful to direct your paths. And while you wait remember the words of Isaiah 41:10 "Fear not for I am with you. Do not be dismayed. I am your God. I will strengthen you; I will help you. I will uphold you with my victorious right hand."